March 17th 2015 - Depression

March 17th 2015 - Depression

Firstly Happy St Patrick's Day to everyone who is Irish, or Irish Decent or just celebrating.  Have a great day. I had hoped for today to be able to do something linked to St Patrick's Day, but this wasn't the case.

Today I had an appointment at the hospital with 1 of the counselling team about my depression and how they can help me to try and get up from the low place I am in at the moment.  I had spoken to the lady on the phone a few weeks ago but today was my first face to face appointment.  It went ok, the lady is nice (which is a good thing).  We went over the things that are making me feel depressed and why I think they are affecting me and we talked about the depression circle similar to this pin, we filled out a sheet about me in each box.

The lady has set me some "homework" for our next appointment in 2weeks time.  I need to fill out a few sheets of "what I do" and "what I did before but don't do now" and have a booklet to have a read through, plus I need to work out some "Goals" of what I would like to get from the sessions and how we can achieve them.

She did say that normally 1 of things that would be suggested for people with depression is to get out of the house for at least half hour a day and go for walk somewhere, but as I am still struggling with walking linked to my knee injury and the surgery I had on it last year that's not really an option as I end up in pain after walking.  I agree sitting at home within 4 walls probably isn't helping my mood but I am limited on what I can do.  (Don't get me wrong I like my walls, they are decorated lovely - a deep purple on most of them with a white and purple wallpaper of roses on my chimney).

So once the kids are in bed I plan to work on some of it to see what I can come up with.  I also need to get into the doctors to sort a medication review as I don't think my meds are doing much - the pain killers for knee are not easing that much and the anti-depressants that are meant to help me sleep aren't doing that as I am still awake at 1-2 in the morning most mornings despite going to bed at about 10pm!